This hasn’t been the easiest journey for me. Or for anyone that I love dearly. My mother had to get used to the fact that her little girl was going to have a little boy, that was really tough on her. If I regret anything I regret causing the pain I caused her. She didn’t deserve any of that. She really is the best thing God has blessed me with. And now he blessed me with another great part of my life, my baby boy. He will be loved, there is no doubt about that. I have never been so scared in my life, especially not having the support I wanted from his father. But I learned how to be strong for myself and for my baby. I am scared because I don’t know what to expect, I’ve never been a mother before, but I know when the time comes I will know exactly what to do. When you love someone the way I love my little boy, anything is possible. This isn’t exactly the way I wanted to start a family, but sometimes you have to go with the flow. He will be here any day now, and I can’t tell you or any one how truly excited I am to meet him, hold him, and kiss his little face. I love him.
I love you Ryan.
